A month in already! Wow! That flew by! So let me ask you, how’s your school year going so far??
It’s been a wild one here! As we attempt to settle in to a new schedule where I work 2 mornings, 2 evenings, and 2 nights through the week, it has half disappeared into busyness. I have been stressed out, overwhelmed, and yelling again! 🙁 Good thing my God has infinite new mercies for me and I can find a fresh start whenever I need it. I need it!
I’m so thankful I have this hope! No matter how many days I’m too tired to read, no matter how many dark mornings I get up so early and come out of the bathroom to find a tiny person demanding breakfast, no matter how many shameful moments I regret, God is always reaching His hand out to me. He picks me up every time I fall. He waits patiently for me to realize I’m trying to do this in my own strength again. He is always there for me, always! And He loves me through it all!
Yesterday was a better day because I held on to that promise and relied on His strength, not my own. I prayed through a schedule that may work better for us than the loop. Sometimes I try things with this ideal in my mind when I should know better. Our reality doesn’t exactly line up with these ideals. When we skip one thing, we start skipping all things and I start panicking that we are going to get too far behind. No one grows when I go there. This time around I recognize it now and made a slight adjustment immediately. We are not chucking anything entirely! I’ve learned that lesson, too.
This process of growth seems so long and tedious and sometimes I wish I’d just get it together. I’m thankful for what growth has happened though. I know I’m not who I once was.
So we forge ahead, slight adjustments made, and already I can see we are on the right track. Ask me again after “math day” 😉
How do you do it mamas?? Homeschool mamas, public school mamas, private school mamas… do you have some set schedule or rhythm that helps you fit in all the things?
We’re all in this together, being everything our kids need us to be. Baking treats and doing homework and cleaning messes and letting them talk and talk and talk and talk 😉 and listening and helping and a million other things everyday.
It’s hard to know when they’re home if any of it matters to them. I get trumped by the dog everyday. But I have to hope that they care. That when they grow up, they’re going to realize they had a mama who loved them and showed them in her own imperfect way the love and grace of God.
Well, whether or not they see it now, mama, I see you. Way more importantly, God sees you! He sees you being faithful, making sacrifices for those precious ones He entrusted to you. He sees you reading to them, praying for them, buying them new clothes when your jeans are 10 years old. He sees you. I see you. And you’re an amazing mama! They are so lucky to have you! Someday, they’ll know it too and they’ll tell you so. And then they’ll follow you and love their babies like you loved them, like Jesus loves them. Every moment is worth it. The future is bright for them because of you.
So keep up the good work! Keep running the race God has set before you! I’m running alongside you! We’ll make it through, we’ll even enjoy this race together! Because they are worth it. And because we are!
How can I pray for you so I can really join you in running this race?