We just completed year 6 of our homeschooling journey. It is so funny how things have changed in that relatively short time. At first, my why was obedience. I most definitely heard God call me to this. I argued for a few years before finally acknowledging that is wasn’t something I came up with, but actually God’s voice. I felt completely incapable and overwhelmed that first year. In fact, I have felt that way a lot over the years. Another part of why we started was our oldest son. He was doing well with academics, he had a couple great friends, it seemed on the outside like he was fine. He wasn’t fine. He had so much anger. He knew he had to be good at school so he was, but he unleashed it at home constantly. I could write a whole post on that situation and what has helped him, for today we will just admit, homeschooling has helped him.
What began as me following a call and an answer to my prayers for Keith, has led to a whole lifestyle change. Homeschooling is as much about school as it is about home and, for us, faith. God has led us to some amazing biblical curriculum that has sparked some deep and wonderful conversations. Haley’s phonics led her from creation to Jesus and helped her understand her need for a savior! Last year, she chose to be baptized! Several years ago, Keith made the same incredible choice! No matter what else they choose to pursue in their lives, I know the most important decision is already settled. I know that in every battle they ever face, they will have Jesus with them. They see me pursuing something bigger than myself and they see that I don’t try to do this on my own. Homeschooling has shown me that this isn’t about my success or failure, rather it’s about me trusting and leaning hard on Jesus. He carries us through every hard day and we celebrate with him on every good day. And all the crazy in between!
We have had great seasons, rough seasons, chaotic seasons. We’ve had moments where I thought for sure they would be better off with a nicer teacher in a public school. We’ve had breakthrough moments that strengthened our faith and proved to us that God is with us on this journey and we are taking every single step we are supposed to take. We have grown so much as a family and individually. It is amazing to watch God work in and through our lives. I could have missed so much if I had let fear of failure stop me.
Fear is my number one threat. I am a perfectionist and homeschooling, or life really, just does not fit on a tidy to-do list. Each one of my kids learns differently. Perfectly great curriculum sometimes gets tossed and replaced. I cannot force myself to enjoy a nature walk. The 3 students I have rarely cooperate when the toddler naps. It just doesn’t look at all like I pictured and it’s easy for me to call that failure. I am learning though, that this messy, chaotic, beautiful life is meant to teach me and help me grow, not look picture perfect, and that it doesn’t have to reflect Pinterest or Instagram to be effective. Some days you just need to read books and rest. The to-do list doesn’t actually have to be completely checked off. And plan b almost always leads somewhere better than plan a ever would have.
I homeschool because I believe it is God’s plan for my family. I homeschool because I believe in allowing my kids to learn and grow at their own pace. I homeschool because I believe it’s my responsibility to educate my kids and I prefer to choose what they will study. It has not been easy, I’m sure it will only get harder, but God equips me as we go.
What about you? Do you homeschool? Why or why not? I’d love to hear your story. <3